Friday, March 31, 2017

self-portrait series temporary witchcave 33117









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    1. Blessed Be To Thee & Thine Ciara! <3 <3 <3 nathaxnne

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  2. hi everyone! i don't look like this anymore but like cringe away! <3 i don't have a beard! i have better clothes! when i was doing this i was living in a weekly motel room. it was safer to be bearded etc. i also have lost a bunch of weight that i am gaining back. just so you know, if you are going to take this stuff and use it as anti-trans propaganda know that you are subject to immediate hex. that ish will fail. i have been trans my whole life. i shouldn't have had to come out in my forties. so sure, it was awkward. it still is. every day i wish i could be pretty. the world doesn't want us to transition as kids. the world doesn't want us to transition as adults. it wants to judge us for how well we do with no help or resources, by ourselves, frequently in desperate poverty. so yeah thanks!

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  3. i do still wear this skirt! i get lots of compliments on it!

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  4. it was shocking looking back on these photos from THREE YEARS AGO. omg. i experienced gender dysphoria looking at myself wild huh

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  5. additionally this was still when i considered myself mostly nonbinary which turned out not to be accurate. as a binary trans woman you might have noticed i don't do self-portraits anymore.

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  6. i was so proud of these photos. taking them helped me stay alive when i had no hope.

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  7. i am out to my family. i am out to my job. i am out online. i am out irl. i wear the same clothes every day. i am a woman. i have been a woman my whole life. it shouldn't have been as difficult as it was to come to that conclusion that i had always known. every day i go to work alone and go home alone as a trans woman. so if you want to make fun of me know what you are making fun of.

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  8. Hi everyone! Since some photos from this set are circulating again online I would like to reiterate what i said above regarding this but also tell you something else. I am old and jacked up. I will probably die soon. I am cool with this. I regret some of the dumb stuff i did, the people i hurt. I don't ever regret transitioning. It took me stages and a long time and i am still doing it. I shouldn't have had to transition in college, drop out of transition in order to work for decades, and be reduced to nothing living in deathtraps before i decided to yolo (yolalo?)before death. i am glad that i did. i still kinda miss my beard. if laughing at old photos of me online or circulating them as anti-trans propaganda hurts and it sort of does i guess? i will always be proud of them. when you anonymously circulate images of me it doesn't ridicule me. i should have been able to transition fully as a kid and not in my forties, bit by bit. the argument is that trans kids don't know themselves enough to transition but if we wait until adulthood we are derided for doing so. know that i know ok? imagine me looking down at you over my glasses in middle-aged lady disappointment cause yeah. anyway thanks! glad i could amuse you during the global pandemic and my potential death right on <3

    everything we do reflects upon us forever

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