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i had such severe anxiety about buying a used car let alone getting a loan from a family member, something i desperately wanted to avoid and then having it for one day and then the cabin flooding from extreme weather is a worst-case scenario for me. i will never be ok after this. i cannot keep this car. i will never feel safe in it. it was a car which i did feel safe in. i am having such a bad time. i don't think i can get over this. i just want my life to end.