DamyenThaWikkidMurdaChylde - 666 Halloween Mixx 2017

this mixx courtesy of my friend pd187 has made my night on october eve!!! horrorcore forever! <3

Sial - Binasa (2018)

Awesome Singaporean hxcx fury <3 <3 <3 !!!

Hope Sandoval And The Warm Inventions - 'Trouble' from Through The Devil Softly (2009)

Such a lovely autumnal late night album for all the autumns past and the ones which will come and the ones which will not <3

action movies in the 1980's where a single (usually cishet white male) figure serially murders a bunch of people on their way to some sort of final denouement where they face off in single combat with an adversary who is also some mirrored version of themselves, unambiguously evil, are a daytime mirror of the nocturnal slasher, focusing subjecthood on the single cishet male agent of violence, rather than the community of individuals which are eliminated one by one via this agent until only one victim is left (usually cishet female) to confront the agent of violence or die. Slasher movies resite the POV with the traumatized, both on an individual and communal basis. We don't know much about the daily lives of the endless (frequently non-white, non-english speaking) people killed by the action hero but the slasher spends a lot of time getting to know through mundane activity the people hurt and forever changed by violence.

(at the halfway? mark of the 1980's slasher/action dichotomy lies a common ancestor in the 1970's (rape) revenge movie which can operate in both patriarchal and quasi-feminist modalities wherein a survivor of trauma/loss takes revenge upon the group of perpetrators. these movies give a semblance of agency and lived reality to the perpetrators of the initiatory trauma in order to ground the film when violence comes to them. the 1980's films are fundamentally different because they are about the stark evacuation of agency and personhood from either collective targets or the individual violent actor

((the atomized individual agent of violence vs. community is indicative of the reagan/thatcher war upon and denial of society cloaked in virulent anti-communist rhetoric. only the individual possesses agency. individual agency is experienced in solitude, in an evacuation of selfhood innately tied to loss of community, loss of reflection of the individual in and among others, become a not-person, a death-dealer

no gods, only monsters

no gods

only monsters


children of lilith

children of angrboda


swarm upon the surface of this earth
burrow down deep into her cavernous maws
hide from the unforgiving light of day
creep, crawl and fly, coil and uncoil

to walk up and down in the sun
to lay cast upon the earth in shadow
to weep under the moon


we are abomination

we are many

we are here
we are and have always been
we are among you
we are you

let us join claws

<3 <3 <3

URGENT REQUEST!!! :(

Dear Friends And Readers:

I Screwed Up Big-Time And Now I Can't Make Rent For September.

I have some pretty serious developmental disability issues. It is very difficult for me to engage in new patterns. I just started going to church this week after making plans to do it over 2 years ago. I don't have a washer/dryer and I was getting help from my ex in doing laundry but they have been busy over summer so what i have done as a response is really dumb. I work at a big box store so every time i needed clean undershirts, underwear and socks i bought new ones in bulk. This came out to over $50 a week and now, on top of other existing expenses, i cannot pay my rent for september. I am decompensating right now. In general i have been doing better with finances, cutting back on supplements, etc. Also I will admit that i purchased a couple of new dresses this pay period because i am trying to present en femme whenever possible. This has been honestly necessary for my mental health. i tried to make an appointment with an lgbtq health provider to get therapy that would be covered by medicare two weeks ago and no one ever called me back. I have been desperate to transition social and medically and so now i am just forging ahead on my own. I am sorry  i am rambling. So my rent every month is $540. It is due today and I cannot make it. I need help in making it through to October. I am sorry I am such a loser. Please Help If You Can!!! I can receive monies through google pay at numbatwombat21@gmail.com I am so sorry. <3 <3 <3 love nathaxnne 

PS - Please note that in order to purchase a new dress (or a new top which i need in order to work), this represents 3-4 hours of labor. Due to being disabled, I can only work around 20 hours a week as a cashier, which is extremely painful but i have to do it in order to live. I am trying to do my best, but it is so hard alone. :(