Monday, May 22, 2017

Temple Of The Dog - 'Hunger Strike' from Temple Of The Dog (1991)

This song means more now than it ever has. There is literally a budget being proposed by the President Of The United States which will gut Medicaid, Social Security Disability, Children's Health Insurance Programs, SNAP (Food Stamps), Planned Parenthood. The poor, the sick, children, the elderly, women, all will be starved through austerity in order to funnel welfare to the richest of the rich. I have been living in a weekly motel outside of Harrisburg for months now. I moved here because I ran out of ways to pay for a hotel in Lancaster. I know no one here. It is by a massive freeway. Poor people live here and try to get by. Desperate people. These people are lucky compared to the homeless tent cities in Harrisburg and all over this country. I try and live and pay for food and rent and medicine on what the government gives me because I cannot work. It is not enough. Every month I go without supplements which make me able to live with a debilitating brain injury. Every month I go days without food, or on one meal a day or less. I listen to lectures about how I am irresponsible, about how I am supposed to live when there isn't enough to live on. My mother helps with what she can, but it isn't enough. Nearly half of my income goes to rent. The other half goes to everything else. Every month I run out of money to sustain even basic functionality. Every month I want to die and I consider it. It takes everything in me to not. That we have a government who will give billions of dollars to corrupt dictatorships, will commit treason on television, that will conduct worldwide war and total war at home, which will destroy all of life for marginal profit, which cares nothing for the lives of its citizens, who are expected to effectively exist as slaves or prisoners or expendables for a handful of oligarchs, makes me even more ill than anything else. Our whole lives have been spent in the service of an socio-economic order which exists to murder us slowly and strip of us what assets it can is an obscenity. To live and die within this is unacceptable. To bear children who will grow up under these conditions, who will raise their own children under these conditions is an atrocity. I don't want to live like this anymore. And I am among the lucky ones. <3 everyone who is suffering This song is helping keep me alive right now which is not an easy thing. I love this album. I love u Chris Cornell. <3 nathaxnne

Ce n'est pas un hibou

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Twilight Of The Grampas

David Lynch was born on January 20, 1946. He is a late Capricorn, almost an Aquarius. As of now, he is 71 years old. Donald Trump was born on June 14, 1946. He is a Gemini. As of now, he is 70 years old. Two Grampas. Light And Dark. They are Grampas IRL, but also Grampas to Amerikkka. Both Grampas have weird, iconic hair. Both Grampas went to school in Pennsylvania for stuff that only tangentially relates to their later empires, which they built at least partially in 1970's NYC, a time and a place which formed who they would be and how they would be the rest of their lives. David Lynch has been married 4 times. Donald Trump has been married 3 times. They are fond maybe even fixated by women considered beautiful and alluring.

David Lynch is the kind of Grampa who will tell you amazing stories in as few words as possible, which are totally precise and totally vague simultaneously, who will take you to places he deems important, or which have the best desserts. He is the Grampa you can hang out with while they make furniture and listen to old records but you are never getting bored because it is just nice to spend time with them. This Grampa is corny, tells off-color jokes which are embarrassing, can't get your pronouns quite right or figure out what your deal is with all of that, but you let it go because no harm is intended and ultimately their heart is full of love. This Grampa is getting ready to die and is at peace with it, wanting to give an account and a statement of themselves to the world before they do so, one which is so totally them, in all of their weirdness and flaws and eccentricities that it is an account of a life lived, for both good and ill, but one which is honest as possible.

Donald Trump is the kind of Grampa who seethes and rambles, spilling language and phrases in as many words as possible, trailing off, contradicting himself, gossiping about the neighbors even when that stuff can't possibly be true, frightened of how the neighborhood is changing, angry at everyone around them, feuding with members of their family, unable to take responsibility for how their life is now, constantly threatening to rewrite the will to favor whomever is in favor and cast out whomever is not. This Grampa stays on the couch, watching TV all day long, yelling and cursing or muttering, forgetting to eat or eating only fast food that someone else has dropped off.

Both Grampas are obsessed with conspiracy theories, with the nature of what Amerikkka really is. Both love and fear law enforcement, particularly the FBI for what it represents and what it can do. Both see the world growing darker as they attempt their final statements about who they were and what they have done.

One Grampa you are psyched to visit. One Grampa not so much. People who know them like telling stories and anecdotes about their weird behavior and the strange things they have said in hushed tones of awe.

 Both Grampas operate improvisationally, open to possibility and changing fortune, requiring absolute freedom to unilaterally change course, contradict themselves, untethered to fixed being, shrouded in what is unclear, one in mystery and one in lies.

Once they are gone from this earth, they will be remembered and talked about as legendary folk heroes and villians, people who couldn't possibly have ever really existed, yet whose mark on the world in which we live is indelible, formative, greater than their personalities, greater than their individual consciousnesses, each having created whole realities from themselves for others to inhabit for years and decades and maybe forever.

They never fought each other with swords or with knives or with guns or with anything.

Chromatics - 'Shadow' from Twin Peaks Soundtrack (2017) (and Dear Tommy? (?))

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Sunday, May 21, 2017

Sky Ferreira - 'Night Time, My Time' from Night Time, My Time (2013)

Sky Ferreira clearly lived in Twin Peaks before she lived in Twin Peaks. 'Night Time, My Time' is such a loving tribute and identification with Laura Palmer and FWWM's cinematic world that it makes me cry. I love this song and video so much. <3 nathaxnne

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David Lynch - 'Bad The John Boy' (2013)

This song just plain scares the heck out of me. I don't think I ever want to meet Bad The John Boy under any circumstances or ever get within reach of his long arms!!! NO NO NO NO NO NO

Saturday, May 20, 2017

Princess Nokia - 'Kitana' from 1992 (2016)

I spent a whole lot of the middle of 1995 trying to defeat Mortal Kombat II on the Sega Genesis or at least gain reasonable proficiency at it. I have pretty bad hand-eye coordination for someone who has dedicated much of their lives to tasks which would benefit from at least adequacy in that developmental region. Whatever. I always played Mileena. I mean, I played other characters but Mileena was my MK2 avatar. She was the only person for whom I learned finishing moves. I felt like we were bonded on a spiritual level. I dug her ultra-magenta outfit and her horror-story nature. I respect those who rep Kitana, though! How could I not? I do worry as an old person with brain damage when I see kids doing stuff like boxing and riding bikes without helmets (even though that won't prevent concussions!). I am old enough that anyone who is not like 30 is like a kid to me. Gosh I am lame. This song, though, and Princess Nokia in general, is not lame at all. Princess Nokia rules!!! <3 nathaxnne

Friday, May 19, 2017

Johnny Jewel - Windswept LP (2017)

Before Twin Peaks was on TV, there was Julee Cruise's album Floating Into The Night so if you bought that album like I did in the fall or winter of 1989, you could be in Twin Peaks before you were in Twin Peaks. I cannot tell you what it feels like then to listen to Johnny Jewel's Windswept album which contains music from Twin Peaks Season 3 within it. We cannot know, not yet, what exactly will appear in the show exactly, but the whole album is in Twin Peaks because it lives there and came from there and isn't going to leave. There is also a bunch of late-eighties Chris Isaak in this which is also Twin Peaks before it was Twin Peaks. Windswept presents as incidental musick, as a soundtrack of over and under and inbetween but it extends and creeps into the undergrowth, into motel carpet, into dreams, into the wind. <3


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Full Of Hell - Trumpeting Ecstasy (2017)

Calling up ancient uneasy jamz as it pushes past into the future, Trumpeting Ecstasy is the disorienting, disquieting blare of the forever now, pestilent, ruined, triumphant <3 nathaxnne

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

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Motley Crue's Generation Swine Whose 20th Anniversary It Is Is Their Best Album For Real

Dear Internet: I am and have always been in love with Motley Crue's Generation Swine. My other favorite Motley Crue album is Too Fast For Love, which sounds like it was recorded to each and every cassette individually on a boom box every time one was sold. It is one of the messiest and tawdriest punk-glam albums ever made and I love its jacked-up teenage energy with the all of me that I have been. I love every 80's Motley Crue album too or realistically, every Motley Crue album really but they got progressively glossier and more/less ornate depending upon the needs of the marketplace which is totally awesome until they became confused by grunge and hired John Corabi which is also fine but then fell out with him for being Too Grunge during the pre-production for what would become Generation Swine and rehired Vince Neil. Generation Swine is Motley Crue's inverse Sgt. Pepper, awash in anger, failure, drugged-out apathy, noise, vocal filters and processing, depression and decadence gone stale in the aftermath of real tragedy. Motley Crue's inability to comport themselves to a marketplace which had largely abandoned traditional rock formats in favor of prog, futurist r&b, electronica, adult contemporary, watching or pretending to ignore an already fading Marilyn Manson occupy their satanic-glam niche, whilst nonetheless absorbing all of these currents into itself produced a masterpiece. I don't say that lightly. I can't think of anything else which captures post-grunge anomie subsumed within late-Clintonian venality better than this album. It is full of detritus and waste, incomplete reflections of the reality of things that it just doesn't want to know but can't avoid. It can't adapt to the future but it can't pretend its not living in the future either, a skidding into the abyss, which honestly is kind of welcomed because it would mean escape from the light, from the exhaustion of living as an unsold product within a star system in full rejection. A morass of sludge and beauty and filth, I love this album with all of my heart, my scarred and failing and damaged middle-aged heart, even more than Too Fast For Love, because it means more, holds more intentionally or between its scattered thoughts, all the way down

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Alder And Elius - 'Avatar Blackwolf' from Parental Guidance (2000)

One of my most-played jamz of circa 2000, 'Avatar Blackwolf' is lofi wizard tech derived from Ralph Bakshi's Wizards and it cast its spell over me so hard it has never let up even this far into the XXIst Century. <3 nathaxnne

Saturday, May 13, 2017

Twin Peaks Season 3 Trailer It Is Happening Again

OK This also is super-scary but somehow less scary than the last trailer except for parts that are more scary. This feels so deep into later-era Lynch that I almost cannot believe it. There is a weary, drawn, desaturated feeling to everything. I feel shaken yet gratified. I cannot wait for May 21st. <3

Thursday, May 4, 2017

Twin Peaks Season 3 Trailer Of Familiar Characters (2017)

I think this is the first Twin Peaks trailer I have posted here because it is the first one to really freak me out. I don't know if it is just the soundtrack or the editing but I feel deeply uneasy now, which is how I like my Twin Peaks feelings! I have not been having a good week so this made me feel a little better. All I want is to be able to see the entirety of Twin Peaks Season 3 in good enough health to really appreciate it and then if I die, it will be ok. Unless they make Season 4. <3 nathaxnne Also, you know, Grace Zabriskie Forever!!!