here is what i need help with today

hello since i have begun writing in my blog again out of desperation, i have had not had much success in the aim of material assistance which i would not be asking for if i didn't need it.
yesterday i was sent home from work because i was not able to get enough cbd/thc to stop the spasms prior to work. on the way home, the only nearby dispensary was out of the disposable 1:1 pen i use for emergencies and when out. so now i have to go to work again without enough medicine and once again might get sent home, having now lost the income from yesterday, putting me again in a financial hole i CANNOT GET OUT OF.

today just to function as a human being i will need:

a) 1 1/8th of cbd-dominant dry flower $60
b) 1 1/8th of thc-dominant dry flower $60
c) 1 1:1 cbd/thc disposable vape pen $40

d) gas sufficient to drive the MULTIPLE HOURS after work to get the medicine due to extreme shortage in PA, so one tank of gas $25
e) Boswellia, an anti-inflammatory for joint pain, $15 (i also need ALA and calcium citrate but i will wait until wed for those i guess)

f) food. i am out of food, so idk, $50 for food enough for two/three days. i have no kitchen, only a microwave and a dorm fridge, so everything is out of a box.

just for today, that is a total of $250. i cannot function really without this stuff. i thought i would 'just get by' yesterday but then i got sent home. my life is collapsing.

i can accept help from google pay at numbatwombat21 at gmail and also paypal

this is my life driving at 60mph toward a brick wall. i won't have anything to get to the end of the year with. i am having a nervous breakdown on top of whatever else is happening.

also, because i wasn't stressed-out enough, yesterday i came out to my transphobic dad, who, after trying to seem supportive, went back to being fully transphobic even while saying he loved me unconditionally but won't affirm my gender. GREAT!!! everything is awesome