Slaylor Moon - Zone Of Pure Resistance (2019) (plus telethon rambling! great! the best!

Slaylor Moon's Zone is the kind of music i want to listen to when imagining what it must feel like to not want to get out of bed because it feels good to remain in bed when you have taken a nap at some inopportune time and now when u get up from your nap is is totally dark and cold outside and you don't want to go outside you just want to lay in bed and stare out into the darkness. it rules. these are the slow jamz i need for those days i don't die in my sleep <3 [OK so i have decided after yesterday i am going to do something different. The long rambling posts about how jacked up everything is in my life and asking for large amounts of inchoate monies to get through the next two weeks is probably not a good rational strategy. instead i will post an album i am listening to these days and/or rn and i will tell you what i need help with immediately. It is kind of like an end-of-year telethon but these aren't like BEST OF albums just the albums i am listening to and remember to record here. i don't watch movies these days. i am too hurt. instead i watch msnbc (barf) and baking shows (which i like) and listen to music. normally i would have been drawing but the nerve damage is too bad to draw. so yesterday i spent like 85 dollars at the grocery store. that represents what was the balance of my checking account after paying for one half of the rent for november which i have but still haven't gotten from the bank. i am going to do that today. as of right now i have thirty dollars to get through a week and a half until i get disability. in this week i will need like $200-$250 for pain management meds in the form of mmj, gas to get to and from work, food for the later part of the week after i initiate and complete this week's 48-hour fast which i do every week to save money and harness autophagy. i don't know if it is ultimately what i should be doing. so if you can help me with literally anything to survive the next week and a half that would be awesome because my bank balance is thirty dollars unless i want to use my rent money to survive thusly breaking my word to my landlord that i would have the rent money by friday which i now have. my finances are a tower sliding into an abyss. if you can/want to help for the next week and a half (for this month) please send monies via google pay to numbatwombat21 at gmail dot com i know i have paypal i just don't remember how it works but i use the same id there and have received money from friends recently. i hate doing this. i am only doing this because i have literally exhausted all other resources after missing a bunch of work in october and november from being sick. i don't have anyone else in my life i can ask so i am asking the cosmos. if i am well enough i can produce content that people like sometimes. if i am too sick i cannot. i would rather not live under those circumstances but i cannot find a reasonable way to cease to exist intentionally in the united states today.